托福居然熬到光棍节凌晨出分。

同学跟我讲的时候我整个一抖。

然后开页面准备刷⋯⋯发现重新倒过一次bookmarks以后用户名跟密码都么了，很碎碎念地重新找回用户名，抖划抖划地开始准备刷⋯⋯

刷了一下，然后space到msn继续live chat，都没有勇气点开网页再看。

点了，居然是error，日。刷新，直接盯着看。结果⋯⋯出了这么个成绩：

你可以想像我当时的表情都有那啥了。我眼泪都快bia-ji下来了。但是大概因为盯电脑屏幕盯了一天了，视神经疲劳⋯⋯一点喜极而泣的欲望都没有。去年这个时间，老子是考了101的人。

阅读完全没想到居然满分。听力预料到了。其实感觉跟上次一样烂，居然还高了一分。口语⋯⋯不说什么了，两个good一个fair，飙泪，我那50＋个段子没白准备啊日。写作也算是一雪前耻吧，虽然我居然悲剧的没把那句in conclusion写完。

于是我终于达标了boston那个傻逼的25 ＋25＋25＋25 ＝ 100的线。不到线不看材料的一刚。

欢乐。

我只想说，Leni, you gotta keep the faith with our boys. I did, and I met YOU there.

PEACE.

另，11.11出了111这种分数。我今天一定要去吃pocky.

今天下午去聽了托賓（Colm Toibin)的講座, 題目是the origin of a novel。他认为小说创作是想像力輿經歷的融合。這一點我是相當同意的。我始終相信一個作家要寫的無非是自己的經歷，不論是存在於物質世界可被客觀呈現的物理經驗，還是內心某一瞬間所感受到的衝動。

他給到所有準備寫小說的人一個很有趣的忠告：Don't invent a room. Find a room and put your characters in it. 說得就是小說中的物理環境。這一點我倒是沒有考慮過。或許這有利於想像的開展？恩，或許，我覺得多少值得一試。另外一個比較有趣的是說永遠不要害怕將任何人寫進小說。他說要注意聽周圍人的七嘴八舌（gossip），關於這一點我也很同意，寫作的原初動力是情緒輿觀點的表達，而一切都來自於好奇心。一個好的小說家，應該寫作有趣的東西，而非那些人盡皆知的老生常談。

還有一個頗有趣的說法是，若是去到一處從未去過的城市，見到未曾想見的奇妙風景，或是遭遇了新鮮的人事，都要將它們放入你的小說中去，不要寫日記或是寫信告訴別人。lol，這個是職業寫作者的敏感吧。

不過cindy，這句話很適用於你！你明白我在說甚麼吧。

另，這個老頭子居然和u2關係很好⋯⋯囧。

聽完講座以後，內心有洶湧。我果然還是很愛寫小說。今次的標題也算是表了決心。

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今天還下了florence and the machine 09年的專輯，因為先前在suckerlove玩sound like slash的時候， kate有推薦到他們的drumming song，我聽過覺得很上癮。這次也就自己找來聽了。

確實是很好很值得一聽的專輯呢。不過發現一件很囧的事情，最近rapidshare有大規模刪檔的嫌疑，難道youtube的命運終於要降臨到rs身上了麼？不要啊。

今天寫了跨文化傳播的論文。闊別傳播學論文1年之久，回來寫這個真是超不習慣。

於是頭疼慾裂，於是頻頻反胃。

我實在是看不出讓一個大四學生再去寫這種小兒科論文有甚麼好玩的。

昨天看了cebo最後兩集summer short film。聽到這首i ll be yours的remix和passive aggressive。覺得心頭甚歡，恰好有人放出連接，便也下來做bgm。

至於trigger happy我想這首歌也不用多說了。反正是心頭好。

托福成績下個禮拜就要出來。我也黨加緊進程。

keep the faith with PLACEBO.

creds:pirlouiiiit on flickr

That means, things grow a bit wild.

I fucking lost my ipod classic ytd when i was getting off a bus. My IPC got fucking stolen by a guy when i was totally occupied chatting with a classmate. I felt the ipod sliding out of the pocket on my pants as well as the music gone...i realized my ipc was stolen by someone but i couldnt make sure who's the motherfucker among a bunch of ppl walking in front of us. i ran ahead to catch 'em but i just didnt know who the hell did this to me. 

so it's gone.

i didnt mean to go back school last night, i returned to campus cuz the charger of my cellphone was left at dorm and i meant to write my PS the next day. but but but...for fuck's sake, when i got to the dorm and opened my bag, i realized i happened to leave the laptop power in the office. 

WTF!!!!

and this was not the end of the story.

I hanged out with tata n her boyfrnd for a while then returned dorm, boiled some water to have a quick bath. When i finished and was about to dress on a clean undies...all of a sudden i noticed something strange floating in the toilet. I looked down on it and gasped. Fuck, it was a bug. it was fucking dwelling on my undies just before i took it from the bag and stretched and the bug happened to fall into the toilet...i have no idea about what the fuck it was and i was not in any fucking mood to learn about that. I flushed the toilet, got dressed in undies and walked out of the bathroom.

and this was not the fucking end of the story either!!!!!

I rolled back to my bed, groaning about what had already(!) happened to me, tucking my legs into the pajama pants...and it happened, AGAIN, that the fucking elastic band within my pants broke...all at once!!!! i was like , "wtf wtf wtf!!!" my roomies told me it's time for bed, that's enuf for me.

and it had not bloody ended yet!

i grabbed over the quilt way too brutally that my cellphone fell onto the ground following an elegant arch in the air... my cellphone crashed.

I CANT BELIEVE THIS.

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well slashy offer here:

My iPC was named "Brian Molko" at the day I bought it. 

I just named my macbook air retarded "Spacebaby Steffie"

Explanation 1: Brian was in jealous of me devoting too much love to Stef so he got hurt and walked away.

Explanation 2: “Stef和Brian這麼一對小情侶剛剛團聚就這麼被拆散了⋯⋯你讓stef一個人以後怎麼過啊？都沒有人插了！他插誰去啊！白羊座性慾很強的啊！那個死不要臉搶走Brian的，到底要把Brian搶給誰當壓寨夫人啊 T_T”

於是我居然就不是很難過了。T_T悲劇啊。

關系最好的表哥在小光棍節結婚了，對象是法語系的學姐。

真是一言難盡啊。

結婚現場整個復旦幫了。復旦法語系教員幾乎傾巢出動，新娘一名，伴娘一名，司儀一名，音效一名，燈光一名，證婚人一名……

囧。真心祝福你們，呐。

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繼續轉移到PLACEBO身上。

Barbie在FB放了Trigger Happy的歌詞！哦，其實是KATE聽寫的麼。

这姑娘是去现场看了巴黎的两场，但是我觉得略有点奇怪……因为最后一句我听到的是yeah yeah we dont give a fuck = = （證實是有兩個版本，也。）

不过其他的部分看起来，果然跟我猜的一样，特政治特正义特正直…… 


The world is run by clowns with trigger happy hands 
But the world is filled with people that we don’t understand 
So we’re living in a culture made of death and fear 
Doesn’t seem the human race will make it through the year 

The world is run by lying, drunk, balding, know it alls 
But my mother told me pride always come before a fall 
Now remember in the day when we were young and green? 
We were filled with hope; we were squeaky clean 

"The world’s an unforgiving place", we've all heard this before 
But we want hospitals and equal rights instead of fucking wars 
We want the right to grow our minds, as crazy as it seems 
The only place you’re truly free is cosy in your dreams 
I said the only place you’re truly free is cosy in your dreams 

So put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 
Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 
Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 

The world is run by clowns with trigger happy hands 
But the world is filled with people that we don’t understand 
So we’re living in a culture made of death and fear 
Doesn’t seem the human race will make it through the year 

Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 
Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 
Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 
Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck

貼下載：

I Know rip Credit to Jimmy Kane & Shanebibi from Placebocity 

format: m4a 

TH HQ version Credit to mandyas87 from PFWW 

format: FLAC 

http://www.rayfile.com/files/cff590d1-c702-11de-9b6e-0014221b798a/ 

I Know 08年在一個電影 Amor, Dolor y Viceversa (Love, Pain & Vice Versa)裏出現過，其實和我們之前可能聽到過的Meds Tour時期Kansas City演出的那一首是一樣的版本。 

改動的話就是整首歌高了幾個KEY，然後BRIAN聽上去和當年區別不大……這一點非常，非常，非常神奇。 

至於TH HQ，這是今年的一首新歌，10月21日迴歸winter tour的時候在法國演了幾場，據了解還沒有studio version。。。很實驗，BASSLINE超無敵嗲，音牆很噪很韻律，鼓略有點糊，但是還是非常，非常，非常的好。 

=D 我瘋掉快了。睡不著。

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PFWW又一個姑娘ceej001做了MTV提名視頻的截圖：

我愛MOLSDAL，也。

Stef那個眼神。真是滿滿的愛啊。

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最近心很累。

下周要開始回復常態，不能在繼續吊兒郎當了。醬紫。

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That's my mac air retarded, oops, sorry, my SPACEBABY STEFFIE.

早上去考試之前，看了一個在追的SLASH的兩個CHAP，然後看了一個CEBO昨天的視頻。 

穿著PLACEBO的TEE，錢包裏放著STEF的撥片，手機裏放著BRIAN的照片。 

滾去考託福了。 

KEEP THE FAITH。 

今天一路上都沒有什麼人盯我看。我好傷心，大家果然都沒有認出PLACEBO麼。

關於託福。NOT BAD NOT THAT GOOD.各有得失吧。不過真的考到某同學給我預測的JJ了。考的好的話，那頓飯是免不了了。今天要是沒JJ我絕對死了。

絕對不推薦上財C考場，一進去老師就開始催著不讓在休息室看資料，被催了10分鐘不耐煩的去簽了協議，老師還跟在後面說，讓你們早點進，你看現在連坐的地方都沒有了。
簽完了在門口排隊的時候，那個老師繼續不耐煩地對我們發牢騷說，讓你們早點進不進……
9點1刻進的場，結果9點40才開考，害的我聽力的時候憋死了。
感覺老師的素質水平實在有待提高，好像在學生旁邊走來走去不會干擾到我們考試一樣的，我當時都無語了。
第一篇閱讀被兩個走來走去的監考嚴重干擾，中間還有一個老師很大聲的咳嗽（我當時就震驚了），聽力的時候也一樣再干擾。
中間休息完了我回來，在草稿紙上默寫模版，一個老師盯著我看了好多次。我覺得好好笑，我又沒有偷看別人，我默我的模版關你什麼事。結果後來發現，其他同學默模版他也盯著看，生怕大家作弊一樣。
其實上財的考場條件我個人覺得非常不怎麼樣，一個教室裏塞了太多的機器，走廊的空間機小，干擾性強到一個令人髮指的地步。但其實我覺得干擾還是主要來自監考。
不過還是感謝那個幫我拔鉛筆的老師。我手滑，IELTS那個筆寫禿了都拔不出來。

絕對不建議上海的同學報上財。我就是被GRE那個點溫柔的老師和溫和的態度騙到了才報的上財。

嗯牢騷發完了。其實我個人考得不算太糟糕，但是我覺得如果比較容易受干擾的同學，還是不要去上財了。

再關於頭髮。

我又剪了HELENA頭

1. 秋日小西裝一件，看中了跟Drew Barrymore一樣的某款。

2. 新眼鏡。考試結束以後去三葉眼鏡城看一下，買付大框框來帶。

3. 表哥結婚典禮的衣服……= =這個好煩，因為要做receptionist所以不能穿得太隨便！

4. 定 CEBO的ASHTRAY HEART跟KOC的新專。

5. 去系教務處打印成績單。

6. 豹紋短靴吧，啊我依然沒有忘記豹紋。

今天在NUBOOK看見幾個妞穿的還是很美。

我覺得這個很有Brian早年的風範……

很喜歡這個妞的搭配，自己也穿的出身……可是……握拳，減肥吧！

……是WYIN早期誒。

其實我很鐘意這種

…強烈要求STEF這樣穿！！！

今天最裂的事情就是看到NUBOOK有了10歲的小正太！！！

強烈要求BRIAN這樣穿！

我發現我對BRIAN有變態的lace情結……

……上帝啊，你們知道我想到了什麼麼！！！

I got it bad,
You don’t know how bad I got it.
You got it easy,
You don’t know when you got it good.
It’s getting harder,
Just keeping life and soul together.
I’m sick of fighting,
Even though I know I should.
The cold is biting,
Through each and every nerve and fibre.
My broken spirit is frozen to the core.
Don’t wanna be here no more.

[Chorus]
Wouldn’t it be good to be in your shoes,
Even if it was for just one day?
Wouldn’t it be good if we could wish ourselves away?

You must be joking,
You don’t know a thing about it.
You’ve got no problem,
I’d stay right there if it were you.
I got it harder,
You couldn’t dream how hard i got it.
Stay out of my shoes,
If you know what’s good for you.
The heat is stifling,
Burning me up from the inside.
The sweat is dripping from each and every pore.
Don’t wanna be here no more,
Don’t wanna be here no more.

[Chorus]
Wouldn’t it be good to be in your shoes,
Even if it was for just one day?
Wouldn’t it be good if we could wish ourselves away?
Wouldn’t it be good to be on your side?
The grass is always greener over there.
Wouldn’t it be good if we could live without a care?
Without a care,
Without a care,
Without a care,
Without a care

换了非常美丽的BANNER！！！

嗯我的BLOG BANNER终于出现PLACEBO以外的东西了= =可喜可贺可喜可贺。

Eirik和Erlend。我在写REVIEW的时候，也越写越觉得奸情四溢……怎么办呢。尤其是Eirik还当众说自己像家庭主妇一样等Erlend回挪威等的好辛苦。额。

这个REVIEW实在写的我太痛苦了。但再不写掉我真的可以去撞南墙了。

接下来要做的事情实在是足以让我have the courage to rebel everything including sleep了。

今次干脆将BLOGNAME一并换掉。Wouldn't It Be Good真是有望成为我最喜欢的PLACEBO COVER呢。Leni说这首歌的歌词听起来太绝望，我却觉得，他的声音里充满了力量。离开的勇气和决心，不是每个人都有的。

我的最后一个常用PROXY终于死掉啦。但另一方面，VPN却又连得上了，虽然速度上会慢一点。

然后我也终于成了大肆综合症患者，好在我已经下定决心。

还是继续念书的好。