这一帮搞笑艺人现在极为欲盖弥彰地把所有的责任都往舒米身上推，好象惟恐天下人不知道舒马赫是幕后黑手。蒙总直接说“我不喜欢看到每站比赛都有人在电视上作秀”（这句话原封不动地还给你，蒙特泽莫罗先生！），而米兰体育报更是极不可理喻地称舒米为“讲德语的幽灵”，哇难道讲意大利语就不是幽灵了嘛？

车队上下只有马萨一个人为舒米辩护说“这不是他一个人的责任，而是整个车队的决定”其他意大利高管则选择缄口不语。我真的不明白这种推卸责任的传统是从什么时候开始在法拉利流行起来的？即使的确是舒马赫提供了这一建议，但决定是谁做的？是多霉天尊吧。

这两站看下来，包括去年的比赛，法拉利高管都在刻意回避的一个事实就是法拉利战术一年不如一年。蒙总在接受采访时称法拉利的技术团队成他人笑柄，但我怎么就觉得战术团队是他妈更大更明显的笑点呢？还是我笑点有问题？

真想劝某人好好看看清楚，这么多年你拼死卖命誓死效忠的到底是一个什么东西，你信任的到底一帮什么人。法拉利很明显已经没有你的位置了，事实上从你退役的一开始也许就没有了。选择跟某人签约也只不过是看中他比赛场上大多数车手还高的商业价值，赚一点转播的镜头，而时至今日，当他们需要一个替罪羊的时候，就义无返顾对曾经的自家孩子挥刀相向。人心隔肚皮啊隔肚皮。

看吧，面目狰狞的魔鬼终已亮出它雪白的獠牙，即将扑食昔日救它于迷途的猎手；这根本就是现代版农夫与蛇。以前捧舒马赫是往自己脸上贴金，现在则是往你身上吐痰来保自己的颜面。推卸责任是治不好脑残的，还是考虑集体换脑吧，诚挚地，致法拉利车队意大利高层。

我觉得我真是很难再继续喜欢法拉利了，不过也无所谓，反正当年萌的就是铁三角……

想起当时写过的一篇作文，现在看起来真是莫大的讽刺。

TOPIC: ISSUE235 - "Most people are taught that loyalty is a virtue. But loyalty-whether to one's friends, to one's school or place of employment, or to any institution-is all too often a destructive rather than a positive force."
WORDS: 666          TIME: 00:41:46          DATE: 2009-3-15 17:43:25

The speaker claims that loyalty is not always a virtue as people said, instead, loyalty are often a destructive rather than a positive force. Basically I do not agree with the notion insofar as loyalty serve as one of the most significant human virtue all throughout history, although under some extreme circumstances, it can turn out to be harmful.

To begin with, the basic form of loyalty that we are familiar with is the loyalty to our friends, partners and familiy members. In highly spinning society like this, everyone lives under considerable pressure generated from work, study and so forth. As a basic human instinct, people natually resort to friendship and kinship for emotinal comfort. Friends as well as our family members including partners, offer us a cozy retreat protecting us from loneliness and miserable status. And loyalty, accompanied with love and trust, is the basic bond between us and all these closest people around us. If we discard loyalty to our friends, people will start to leave you until no one else remains on our side. Although love and kinship is much stronger and stabler than common friendship, without loyalty, we will definitely lose all of them. The fundamental basis of marriage is the loyalty to each other, which embodies in a deeply mutual love, if one betrays one another, there is no more love any longer. For family members like parents, they will give up their constant love for us if we do break their hearts by throw loyalty away.

When it comes to a group or any institution, loyalty also plays a crucial role in individual performance and sometimes means more than loyalty. In the history of racing car sports, Michael Schumacher is one of the greatest racers, who served Scuderia Ferrari for more than 11 years since 1996, and his name often appears together with the team "Ferrari". After two wins of World Championship, Schumacher started his new career with Ferrari which were titled "Red Cucumbers" for its cars low-graded performance in the races. However, Michael showed an extremely high loyalty to his team by believing a dream of winning both World Champions for racer and for constructive, and the team spirit was ignited by his arrival and inspiration. Having been through many hardship and stifle with numerous obstacles including a severe accidents in Silver Stone 1999, the team and Michael Schumacher finally won the 2000 World Championship, an honor and success which the team had not celebrated for 23 years. After that, they together won 5 championships in all, which is considered a legend that no one can easily duplicate. Obviously, it is his loyalty to the team made him a miracle within the sports.

However, an unscrupulous loyalty can be harmful even a threat that should be alarmingly taken care of. After the 911attack, terrorism has been a heated issue which received widely concerned all over the world. Terrorists who fulfilled a crazy even insane loyalty to Al-Qaida are considered symbol of devils. Such loyalty does not benefit the one who bared it but rather threaten the safety and lives of those innocent people, common as us,  who believe in peace and love. Numerous attacks and bombards were reported every month by media, people's lives are still in great danger in regions such as Iraq, Afghan and other places in the Mid-East. Even common people like us, live under a relatively safe condition, are also threatened by occasional terrorism-oriented accidents or ever attacks. The loyalty to evil power and the belief in Terrorism which poses threat to a society's stability and peace is completely not loyalty but evil.

In sum, ostensibly the statement focus only on the disadvantages that loyalty might have, but fails to see the most precious part of loyalty. Loyalty is fundamently a great human virtue that should be passed from one generation to the next as part of human spirits, however, excessive and unscrupuslous loyalty can be destructive force, as it is stated in the statement.

随着一句让人窘得入木三分的祝福，三八妇女节终于也变成了我的节日。

今天的上海有了极好的太阳，便也乘着朗日去长风公园乱兜。这二十天闷在家里真得要憋出社交恐惧症来了。反正看到那么多小孩子和那么多奇形怪状的大人，我的第一反应是觉得这一切异常恐怖，然后胃里开始打滚。

原本想带玛勒和格碧去长风公园小草坪拍照，然而那片草坪早已不是我大一那年在那片草坪上喝啤酒晒太阳的印象，而是真的像被河蟹扫荡完毕的马勒戈壁，寸草不生，一毛不拔……一群小孩子很欢乐地在那片几乎已经被踏平、看不出曾经还是一块绿油油草皮的泥地上玩儿气球足球羽毛球，仿佛这是又一个六一儿童节。

相当讽刺的是此时的阳光竟褪成一种苍白而贫瘠的色调。坐了一会儿以后我打算走人，却被一阵游船上的吆喝引上了船。上一次坐船是什么时候了呢？零七年暑假的凌晨两点，在朱家角洪涛的木船上吧？

开船以后，阳光又见好了，分外明媚和煦。我木然地盯着湖绿湖绿的水波，脑中闪过无数幻影：三岁那年在不知明的湖泊上游览，硬是把两根船桨都沉进了水底，我甚至记得那张笑得格外欢乐的照片，红白相间的毛线裙子和鹅黄镶天蓝边的绒线外套；幼儿园时在曹阳公园骑在老虎的石像背上摸着它头顶的王字；小学时陪弟弟在公园里玩得很高兴，坐在小火车上留下一张眼神明亮的影象；从曹杨公园附近的小区里钻栏杆进公园省五毛钱；跟着一群男生从公园旁厕所背面的楼梯上翻墙进公园搓破了手上的皮，却兴奋得不能自已；在外婆的旧宅里床底的那个红色大澡盆里满是我的玩具；在公园门口的抽奖摊上收获人生第一盘磁带，还珠格格的OST；小学二年级时在公园被同班同学欺负，装阔拿出攒了好几个月的几块钱买水给那些小王八蛋喝，回家后被我妈训了一顿；忘记是几年级的时候在曹阳公园的海洋球池里扑腾来扑腾去；一张在公园“宇宙飞船”前的合影；十岁时的六一儿童节，外公外婆带着我去长风公园玩儿得很高兴，红白格百褶裙和白色勾花外套，羊角辫子和穿了好多年的棉白竖条内衣背心；每年的长风公园花展，庙会一般热闹，尽管公共汽车被迫挪位，我却很高兴每天下学能穿梭于拥挤的人群中，琳琅满目的光怪陆离，买过一些假花、一串绿松石手链，还有高中时放在寝室的三格小熊图案整理袋；还有小学毕业后和住在同小区的同班同学徒手爬上长风公园那座假惺惺的山坡，深圳莲花山公园上为徒手攀爬者准备的一个一个小洞眼；初中三年级被人载在自行车后座，对自己的体重撒谎，然后在长风公园里泥小山坡背后泥泞的崎岖小道上握住我曾经喜欢过的你的手；夜晚的复兴公园门前，和大学里最好的女伴并肩坐着，看着灯火摇曳的Richy，担心抢劫犯的出现；去年的荔枝公园，和去了美国的圈圈吃最后一顿撑死人的饭，还有在水边平台上一次让我一滴眼泪都掉不下来心如死水的谈话；第一次去深圳时在世界之窗，那个漂亮的晚会女主持人对我投来明艳动人的微笑。

然而我却没有眼泪，仿佛是在目睹不曾发生在我身上与我毫无相干的别的什么人的经历故事以及生活，关于我和公园们的故事，我知道它们不会再次重演，虽然有人说发生过一次的事情有可能发生第二次。

可惜它们中间却没有任何一件，发生过第二次。如果有过第二次的重复，就一定会发生第三次，第四次，甚至无数遍的重复。

好吧从今天以后到18日，谁看到我在网上任何一个地方出现，都务必踢我下去。谢谢大家。

BELIEVE， OBEY， FIGHT。

 

In Buenos Aires, the Zahir is a common 20-centavo coin; the letters N and T and the number 2 bear the marks of a knife or a letter opener; 1929 is the date engraved on the reverse.(In Grjarat, at the end of the eighteenth century, the Zahir was a tiger; in Jave, it was a blind man from the Surakarta Mosque who was stoned by the faithful; in Persia, an astrolabe that Nadir Shah ordered to be thrown into the sea; in the Mahdi's prisons, in around 1892, a small compass that had been touched by Rudolf Karl von Slatin)

在布宜诺斯艾利斯，查希尔是一枚普通的二十分硬币；用水果刀或裁紙刀划出字母NT和数字二；1912是刻在反面的日期，在胡茶辣，十八世紀末，查希尔是一只老虎；在爪哇，是苏拉卡尔塔清真寺一个被虔诚者们投石头的瞎子；在波斯，是纳迪尔沙阿让人投入大海的一个星盘……

查希尔之意来自于伊斯兰传统，估计出现于十八世纪左右。查希尔在阿拉伯语中的意思是看得见的、眼前的、不能不被感知的。某事或某人，一旦被接触，就会慢慢占据他的思想，直至不能再去专注于其他。

 

polka dotted lolita by Haemoglobin

以上是今日一呲。

http://www.douban.com/event/10464835/

至于这个，是悠长假期的主要任务。

今天在那里无聊开始背TOEFL OG的READINGS了。一个沙漠化把我折腾死鸟。

中午看ICS看到HOT CHIP演唱会欧巨嗲。

现在手冻僵了。

赶快烤烤。

yvan说他的镜头总是关照一些沉重的事实。

我的镜头呢？

我的镜头和我的笔头，关注的恐怕都是自身的情绪。敏感而无聊的心，自由而无用的灵魂。在观察或记录外部世界时，我总有一种内向型取舍的倾向。随着年龄的增长，我愈发了解景随情迁的含义。

一个在家，躺在床上宅到想死。不说话。一动不动，吃85度C的面包。当宅女很好满足，却实在空虚。

欧册那这个墨鱼鸡肉面包太好吃了。

又一次感觉生活失去了重心。我是那么习惯心里始终有一个可以喜欢、想念、倾诉和依赖的人，但现在我的内心重又空无一物。一点也不夸张。于是我只能期待用复数的食物去填满我的胃袋，让食物的果腹感暂时掩盖思维的空洞。

今天没有喝咖啡。天气太冷，只想呆在被子里宅死。

 

折腾没意思。

误会也没意思。

解释更没意思。

哭泣无济于事。

难过也无济于事。

总之都无济于事。

托福没意思。GRE没意思。去香港玩没意思。拍照没意思。写小说没意思。看小说也没意思。找人玩没意思。洗澡也没意思。吃饭没意思。抽烟也没意思。喝咖啡没意思。喝酒更没意思。发呆没意思。不发呆更没意思。有男人没意思。没男人也没意思。发呲没意思。YY没意思。上网没意思。复习也没意思。事情多没意思。无所事事更没意思。化妆没意思。打扮也没意思。买东西没意思。不花钱囤着也没意思。呆在上海没意思。离开也没意思。出国没意思。工作也没意思。寝室没意思。JP男没意思。小朋友没意思。谁都没意思。

 

太没劲了。深深地没劲。我无比鄙视我自己。

蛱蝶 jiádié   ETS你全家你大爷你娘你妹！ 说:
您是说英语的农民
蛱蝶 jiádié   ETS你全家你大爷你娘你妹！ 说:
我是说瑞典语的农民
喜北│  so proud of you, MASSA 说:
小K是说德语的农民
喜北│  so proud of you, MASSA 说:
小米是说苏联话的农民
喜北│  so proud of you, MASSA 说:
反正都是农民

就这样，不再联系就会好起来了吧。

恩。