托福居然熬到光棍节凌晨出分。

同学跟我讲的时候我整个一抖。

然后开页面准备刷⋯⋯发现重新倒过一次bookmarks以后用户名跟密码都么了，很碎碎念地重新找回用户名，抖划抖划地开始准备刷⋯⋯

刷了一下，然后space到msn继续live chat，都没有勇气点开网页再看。

点了，居然是error，日。刷新，直接盯着看。结果⋯⋯出了这么个成绩：

你可以想像我当时的表情都有那啥了。我眼泪都快bia-ji下来了。但是大概因为盯电脑屏幕盯了一天了，视神经疲劳⋯⋯一点喜极而泣的欲望都没有。去年这个时间，老子是考了101的人。

阅读完全没想到居然满分。听力预料到了。其实感觉跟上次一样烂，居然还高了一分。口语⋯⋯不说什么了，两个good一个fair，飙泪，我那50＋个段子没白准备啊日。写作也算是一雪前耻吧，虽然我居然悲剧的没把那句in conclusion写完。

于是我终于达标了boston那个傻逼的25 ＋25＋25＋25 ＝ 100的线。不到线不看材料的一刚。

欢乐。

我只想说，Leni, you gotta keep the faith with our boys. I did, and I met YOU there.

PEACE.

另，11.11出了111这种分数。我今天一定要去吃pocky.

今天下午去聽了托賓（Colm Toibin)的講座, 題目是the origin of a novel。他认为小说创作是想像力輿經歷的融合。這一點我是相當同意的。我始終相信一個作家要寫的無非是自己的經歷，不論是存在於物質世界可被客觀呈現的物理經驗，還是內心某一瞬間所感受到的衝動。

他給到所有準備寫小說的人一個很有趣的忠告：Don't invent a room. Find a room and put your characters in it. 說得就是小說中的物理環境。這一點我倒是沒有考慮過。或許這有利於想像的開展？恩，或許，我覺得多少值得一試。另外一個比較有趣的是說永遠不要害怕將任何人寫進小說。他說要注意聽周圍人的七嘴八舌（gossip），關於這一點我也很同意，寫作的原初動力是情緒輿觀點的表達，而一切都來自於好奇心。一個好的小說家，應該寫作有趣的東西，而非那些人盡皆知的老生常談。

還有一個頗有趣的說法是，若是去到一處從未去過的城市，見到未曾想見的奇妙風景，或是遭遇了新鮮的人事，都要將它們放入你的小說中去，不要寫日記或是寫信告訴別人。lol，這個是職業寫作者的敏感吧。

不過cindy，這句話很適用於你！你明白我在說甚麼吧。

另，這個老頭子居然和u2關係很好⋯⋯囧。

聽完講座以後，內心有洶湧。我果然還是很愛寫小說。今次的標題也算是表了決心。

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今天還下了florence and the machine 09年的專輯，因為先前在suckerlove玩sound like slash的時候， kate有推薦到他們的drumming song，我聽過覺得很上癮。這次也就自己找來聽了。

確實是很好很值得一聽的專輯呢。不過發現一件很囧的事情，最近rapidshare有大規模刪檔的嫌疑，難道youtube的命運終於要降臨到rs身上了麼？不要啊。

今天寫了跨文化傳播的論文。闊別傳播學論文1年之久，回來寫這個真是超不習慣。

於是頭疼慾裂，於是頻頻反胃。

我實在是看不出讓一個大四學生再去寫這種小兒科論文有甚麼好玩的。

昨天看了cebo最後兩集summer short film。聽到這首i ll be yours的remix和passive aggressive。覺得心頭甚歡，恰好有人放出連接，便也下來做bgm。

至於trigger happy我想這首歌也不用多說了。反正是心頭好。

托福成績下個禮拜就要出來。我也黨加緊進程。

keep the faith with PLACEBO.

creds:pirlouiiiit on flickr

The boys won Best Alt acts of MTV EMA.

I knew they would win this, over MUSE, over the Killers, over the Prodigy.

Now some homophobic nuts are getting anxious, how come the PLACEBO gays won this? Fuck you all, it's PLACEBO GAYS won this and that's it, this is life and take it for what its worth.

And this is a victory of LOVE, ppl kept voting hard for cebo and now we got our rewards. we all know that it's gonna kick ass when we were doing that. I'm so fucking proud of being a PLACEBO fan and being part of this.

We all knew that it's gonna be so hard for PLACEBO to win cuz we were facing MUSE n the Killlers who both have the most strong fanbase all over the world. But PLACEBO is the band truly deserves this award. They were breaking back to make BFTS a new peak and yeah they made it that way. For god's sake their efforts should yield a generous reward.

and yes, we made it.

I wore PLACEBO teeshirt to work and the first thing i did at arriving the office was to open my 'spacebaby steffie' see whether placebo made it. XD i almost screamed at the top of my lungs in the office and my colleagues were like "r u 'kay?!"

PLACEBO THE BEST.

>"< love.

昨天晚上看到pfww有放出帖子說今天會有ema的這個頒奬。我笑著說，今天上班的時候大概能看到結果了。
果不其然。今天穿了cebo tee心情大好地去上班，第一件事就是開電腦刷cebo是否有獲奬。
其實我們都已經預料到cebo可能會贏，因為muse居然都沒有到場。而cebo則是當晚的表演嘉賓。

但是黨真的真的發生了的時候，我又激動地幾乎要掉眼淚。

在過去的15年里，cebo從來都不是獎項的寵兒，當然這在某種成都上必須要歸結為他們年輕時候vitrolic bravado給人們留下的壞印象, the evilist band in UK⋯⋯而the killers也好，muse也罷，都是紅到能飆last fm前五甚至第一的樂團。所以這一次可以在mtv的獎項上贏過muse，其實還是很值得慶賀的事情。

今天開pfww也震驚了一下，在我睡覺的時候，就這麼個話題，那幫人居然水出了36頁的帖子⋯⋯上帝啊。

頒奬的時候molko感謝歌迷和所有投票的人。我想確實是這樣。這就是愛。真的，一點也不誇張。PLACEBO歐洲各國和澳洲南美的streetteam一直都在不遺餘力地拉票，這一點在facebook跟twitter上尤為顯著，南美那邊streetteam的隊長幾乎每天都要在fb刷上4、5遍vote for PLACEBO for EMA。

每次看到，我也便自動去投個十幾票。

我沒有搞自動投票機，也沒有猛投一小時。但這麼些天陸陸續續不斷地投票，我想多少也是貢獻了一點點。我也有在任何可以說話的地方拜託大家vote for cebo。所以，I'm glad to be part of it.

謝謝所有看到我的帖子為placebo投了票的同學。

就是因為有我們這樣聚沙成塔的存在，cebo最終得到了這個獎，當然，這完全是他們應得的。如果有人膽敢質疑placebo在bfts時期的努力，我估計是要吐血身亡的。

太高興了。

其實我覺得Brian其實是想要抱Stef的。一宣佈placebo他們倆站起身就默契地相視一笑，而興奮溢於言表的Gumpie則一路走在前面⋯⋯嘖嘖，姜果然還是老的辣嘛，在這種時候Molsdal 15年的相濡以沫，在那一次天衣無縫的對視中，盡顯無疑。於是我忍不住想yy了⋯⋯呢。啊，腐女的美好生活。

Brian sits on the couch arm...

OMFG! how cute!

好吧少女，officially i annouce that you rejuvenate - -

實在是太可愛了555。＊imagines everyone gets drunk at the after party and Stef followed Brian into a room, locks the door behind him and what he sees next infuses a hot rush of blood into his groin: Bri-pie sits on the couch arm, seductively crosses the slim legs, sticks his finger into his gracefully parted mouth, wrapping his plush lips around it and give it a gentle suck, eyeing Stef with an devilish smile on the corner of the mouth＊ go stef go!

腐女的美好幻想！其實也可能是事實。EMA之後，慶祝有理，既然你們都已經在表情和舉止上大舉回歸1996，那麼慶祝方式也乾脆回歸一下好了！

B - fuck?

S - fuck? (pay attention to the change of the tone XD)

B - yeah, fuck.

S - ...yeah!

yeah you boys are never too old to fuck XD

dont ever bring your bedroom show in front of the public eye...fuck, brian, are you enjoying this show-off? bitch...

渾蛋，為甚麼你可以完全的1996年look!

渾蛋，好可愛⋯⋯

渾蛋，太可愛了！他媽的，我好想把他打扮成歌特羅麗哦⋯⋯啊啊啊啊啊，我要看他穿蕾絲黑白小洋裝啊啊啊啊，吊襪帶！高跟鞋！

那個圓頭鞋實在是太有愛了！很好看！我覺得placebo里三個人的outfit，今次是Brian最高分！

That means, things grow a bit wild.

I fucking lost my ipod classic ytd when i was getting off a bus. My IPC got fucking stolen by a guy when i was totally occupied chatting with a classmate. I felt the ipod sliding out of the pocket on my pants as well as the music gone...i realized my ipc was stolen by someone but i couldnt make sure who's the motherfucker among a bunch of ppl walking in front of us. i ran ahead to catch 'em but i just didnt know who the hell did this to me. 

so it's gone.

i didnt mean to go back school last night, i returned to campus cuz the charger of my cellphone was left at dorm and i meant to write my PS the next day. but but but...for fuck's sake, when i got to the dorm and opened my bag, i realized i happened to leave the laptop power in the office. 

WTF!!!!

and this was not the end of the story.

I hanged out with tata n her boyfrnd for a while then returned dorm, boiled some water to have a quick bath. When i finished and was about to dress on a clean undies...all of a sudden i noticed something strange floating in the toilet. I looked down on it and gasped. Fuck, it was a bug. it was fucking dwelling on my undies just before i took it from the bag and stretched and the bug happened to fall into the toilet...i have no idea about what the fuck it was and i was not in any fucking mood to learn about that. I flushed the toilet, got dressed in undies and walked out of the bathroom.

and this was not the fucking end of the story either!!!!!

I rolled back to my bed, groaning about what had already(!) happened to me, tucking my legs into the pajama pants...and it happened, AGAIN, that the fucking elastic band within my pants broke...all at once!!!! i was like , "wtf wtf wtf!!!" my roomies told me it's time for bed, that's enuf for me.

and it had not bloody ended yet!

i grabbed over the quilt way too brutally that my cellphone fell onto the ground following an elegant arch in the air... my cellphone crashed.

I CANT BELIEVE THIS.

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well slashy offer here:

My iPC was named "Brian Molko" at the day I bought it. 

I just named my macbook air retarded "Spacebaby Steffie"

Explanation 1: Brian was in jealous of me devoting too much love to Stef so he got hurt and walked away.

Explanation 2: “Stef和Brian這麼一對小情侶剛剛團聚就這麼被拆散了⋯⋯你讓stef一個人以後怎麼過啊？都沒有人插了！他插誰去啊！白羊座性慾很強的啊！那個死不要臉搶走Brian的，到底要把Brian搶給誰當壓寨夫人啊 T_T”

於是我居然就不是很難過了。T_T悲劇啊。

關系最好的表哥在小光棍節結婚了，對象是法語系的學姐。

真是一言難盡啊。

結婚現場整個復旦幫了。復旦法語系教員幾乎傾巢出動，新娘一名，伴娘一名，司儀一名，音效一名，燈光一名，證婚人一名……

囧。真心祝福你們，呐。

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繼續轉移到PLACEBO身上。

Barbie在FB放了Trigger Happy的歌詞！哦，其實是KATE聽寫的麼。

这姑娘是去现场看了巴黎的两场，但是我觉得略有点奇怪……因为最后一句我听到的是yeah yeah we dont give a fuck = = （證實是有兩個版本，也。）

不过其他的部分看起来，果然跟我猜的一样，特政治特正义特正直…… 


The world is run by clowns with trigger happy hands 
But the world is filled with people that we don’t understand 
So we’re living in a culture made of death and fear 
Doesn’t seem the human race will make it through the year 

The world is run by lying, drunk, balding, know it alls 
But my mother told me pride always come before a fall 
Now remember in the day when we were young and green? 
We were filled with hope; we were squeaky clean 

"The world’s an unforgiving place", we've all heard this before 
But we want hospitals and equal rights instead of fucking wars 
We want the right to grow our minds, as crazy as it seems 
The only place you’re truly free is cosy in your dreams 
I said the only place you’re truly free is cosy in your dreams 

So put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 
Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 
Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 

The world is run by clowns with trigger happy hands 
But the world is filled with people that we don’t understand 
So we’re living in a culture made of death and fear 
Doesn’t seem the human race will make it through the year 

Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 
Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 
Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck 
Put your hands in the air, and wave them like you give a fuck

貼下載：

I Know rip Credit to Jimmy Kane & Shanebibi from Placebocity 

format: m4a 

TH HQ version Credit to mandyas87 from PFWW 

format: FLAC 

http://www.rayfile.com/files/cff590d1-c702-11de-9b6e-0014221b798a/ 

I Know 08年在一個電影 Amor, Dolor y Viceversa (Love, Pain & Vice Versa)裏出現過，其實和我們之前可能聽到過的Meds Tour時期Kansas City演出的那一首是一樣的版本。 

改動的話就是整首歌高了幾個KEY，然後BRIAN聽上去和當年區別不大……這一點非常，非常，非常神奇。 

至於TH HQ，這是今年的一首新歌，10月21日迴歸winter tour的時候在法國演了幾場，據了解還沒有studio version。。。很實驗，BASSLINE超無敵嗲，音牆很噪很韻律，鼓略有點糊，但是還是非常，非常，非常的好。 

=D 我瘋掉快了。睡不著。

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PFWW又一個姑娘ceej001做了MTV提名視頻的截圖：

我愛MOLSDAL，也。

Stef那個眼神。真是滿滿的愛啊。

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最近心很累。

下周要開始回復常態，不能在繼續吊兒郎當了。醬紫。

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That's my mac air retarded, oops, sorry, my SPACEBABY STEFFIE.

很久都沒有做過音樂推薦了。

這次推的這個Andrew Bird提琴口哨大叔，一方面當然是出於私心……另一方面也確實覺得這個藝人值得一聽，擁有濃厚古典樂背景，這個CHICAGO起家的36歲大叔也許算是大器晚成的代表，但也說明拉著小提琴唱歌絕對不是近兩年才開始興起的風潮。強烈推薦2007年的那張Armchair Apocrypha，絕對經典，元素異常豐富，整個音牆也頗為飽滿，有聞之一震之感。果然民謠藝人go heavy都是一件讓人賞心悅耳的事情。至於05和09年這兩張，雖然不及07年AA的巔峰，卻也是非常入耳，比一般indie folk多到一分滋味。

Andrew Bird將於2010年1月到香港、上海和北京進行巡演，屆時我會及時放出通知。

請大家幫忙分享，有DOUBAN帳號的同學加一下音樂人頁面和小組咯。

http://www.douban.com/artist/andrewbird/

http://www.douban.com/group/andrewbird/

擰發條鳥編年史（譯自官網，我個人覺得蠻有意思）：

2009年1月20日 - Andrew Bird在Fat Possum厂牌发行了Noble Beast。NB的录制工作耗时五个月，主要在纳什维尔的 Beech House录音棚完成，其余则在芝加哥和明尼阿波利斯完成。一如过去的专辑，在NB中提琴，人声，口哨与吉他，缺一不可。 
　　 
2008年11月19日 - 宣布2009年早春巡演计划：） 
　　 
2008年10月3日 - “Oh No”在音叉（Pitchforkmedia.com）首发。 
　　 
2008年9月3日- 大鸟在芝加哥的千年公园担纲出道以来最为大型的一次Headline，15000名fans挤满了Pritzker Pavilion。 
　　 
2008年8月13日 - Noble Beast发行前小型巡演发布。两场纽约的gigs在两小时内售罄。 
　　 
2008年3月26日 - 大鸟开始在纽约时报的blog记录新歌Oh No的构想与创作过程。而6月21号的另篇BLOG则曝光了录制完成新专的感受。 
　　 
2008年情人节 - 发行EP The Soldier On。包括Armchair Apocrypha里 "Plasticities"和"Heretics"的alt版， 三首新歌 "The Water Jet Cilice," "Sectionate City," "Sic of Elephants," 还有一首Bob Dylan"Oh Sister"的翻唱。 
　　 
2007年12月到2008年2月 - 2007 Armchair Apocrypha巡演结束。NPR ALL SONGS CONSIDERED 2007 TOP 25, ESQUIRE's 8 Best Songs of 2007, BLENDER's Favorite Songs of 2007 ("Darkmatter"), PITCHFORK 22 Readers Poll, 10 PASTE Readers' Poll, WNYC SOUNDCHECK Best Live Performances of 2007, a first place pick from MTVu’s Freshman for the “Imitosis” video, the Plug Independent Music Award for Best Male Vocalist...(大家自己看吧，我懒得翻了= =) 
　　 
2007年3月20日 - Armchair Apocrypha发行。纽约客称之为 "a vast, optimistic album about depressing things such as falling airplanes and empires“。十万张实体CD销量，AA TOUR开始。 
　　 
2006 - 发行Fingerlings 3。 
　　 
2005年2月8日 - 发行The Mysterious Production of Eggs. 
　　 
2004 - 发行Fingerling 2。 
　　 
2003年6月10日 - Weather Systems发行。 
　　 
2002年10月 - 发行Fingerlings。 
　　 
2001年4月3日 - The Swimming Hour发行。这是大鸟和the Bowl of Fire的第三张也是最后一张专辑。 
　　 
1999年8月24日 - Oh! The Grandeur，第二张Bowl of Fire厂牌下的专辑。 
　　 

1998年4月7日 - Thrills，debut album发行 
　　 
1996年，某日 - 大鸟从西北大学小提琴表演本科毕业。 
　　 
1977年，某日 - 4岁的大鸟第一次摸到“小提琴”。呃，其实是一盒爆米花和一把透明塑料尺……第一次上课只是跟老师鞠了个躬认识了下就回家了……自此大鸟的人生与音乐密不可分：古典熏陶，吉普赛音乐, 早期爵士, 乡村蓝调, 南印风情音乐以及……不知道哪里学来的小流氓口哨。

The Mysterious Production of Eggs（2005）

http://www.douban.com/subject/1417175/ 

rayfile: http://www.rayfile.com/files/d57723c7-c51e-11de-8d43-0014221b798a/ 
　　 
mediafire:http://www.mediafire.com/?dwlkjj5y2d0 
　　 
rapidshare:http://rapidshare.com/files/80775003/Andrew_Bird_-_The_Mysterious_Production_Of_Eggs.rar 

Noble Beast（2009）

　 
http://www.douban.com/subject/3313156/ 
　　 
rayfile: http://www.rayfile.com/files/d52ad2de-c521-11de-a6e3-0014221b798a/ 
　　 
rapidshare: http://rapidshare.com/files/250837864/Andrew_Bird_-_Noble_Beast.rar.html 

Armchair Apocrypha　 

　　 
http://rs272.rapidshare.com/files/110456451/Andrew_Bird__2007__-_Armchair_Apocrypha.rar 
　　 
http://www.rayfile.com/files/f7143bfa-8407-11de-bf54-0014221b798a/